Nighttime musings

Lying in my bed and my head is such a mess. I would like to be asleep but my baby is a thief. She’s robbed me of my nights, and my days are too a fright. But I’m feeling hashtag blessed c’os I know it could be worse. To be honest, I feel shit, even […]

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Body scan

Sitting on the edge of the bed, not quite at ease. Sharp ears confirm all is quiet across the landing. A sigh releases. Relief. Satisfaction. Weary body slowly lowers. Taking care not to disturb the peace. Full weight now supported by the mattress underneath. Contact points pressing firmly. Head sinks deliciously into the pillow. Exhale. […]

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Breaking point

The long coarse grass dances elegantly in the gentle wind. Above, a smattering of fluffy clouds make their way across the sky, breaking up the blue expanse as they hurry off into the distance. The sun sits so low it looks as though it might plunge into the ocean at any given moment. I imagine […]

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A mother’s work

I write this sitting in an empty bath because it’s the only place I won’t be disturbed. You might think the sofa would be a more conventional and comfortable spot to lounge whilst scribing my daily notes, but it’s far too obvious. As for lying in bed, well, that would be just plain awkward if […]

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Motherhood is all the things

I often get asked how motherhood is going – as does, I’m sure, every first-time mum. My answer varies, depending on my mood…

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